City of Delusion

Sometimes you wish you are strong or think you are, but the day comes when you realize that you are not. That it was all a big cover up to hide everything that you don't want to show, or feel. It was all just buried down deep inside and then suddenly it reemerges. You try to deny the fact by pushing it away some more, but the harder you push it away, the harder it hits when it comes back. In the end, you end up back where you started. You can see it in your own eyes every time you look into the mirror. Your eyes betray you, its the only thing you can't hide. It lingers in your thoughts. Playing with your emotion bit by bit. Tearing you apart piece by piece. Yet you can only wish you were strong. Strong enough to at least hold yourself together, just for a little more time. Just to reach that light at the end of the tunnel. To leave the dark behind you. One can only wish...

Why sex is good...

1. Sex is a beauty treatment.
Scientific tests find that when women
make love they produce amounts of the
hormone estrogen, which makes hair
shine and skin smooth.








2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces
your chances of suffering dermatitis,
skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat
produced cleanses the pores and makes
your skin glow.








3. Lovemaking can burn up those
calories you piled on during that
romantic dinner.








4. Sex is one of the safest sports you
can take up. It stretches and tones up
just about every muscle in the body.
It's more enjoyable than swimming 20
laps, and you don't need special
sneakers!








5. Sex is an instant cure for mild
depression. It releases endorphins
into the bloodstream, producing a
sense of euphoria and leaving you with
a feeling of well-being.








6. The more sex you have, the more you
will be offered. The sexually active
body gives off greater quantities of
chemicals called pheromones. These
subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite
sex crazy!








7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in
the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE
EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.








8. Kissing each day will keep the
dentist away. Kissing encourages
saliva to wash food from the teeth and
lowers the level of the acid that
causes decay, preventing plaque build-
up.








9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A
lovemaking session can release the
tension that restricts blood vessels
in the brain.








10.. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a
stuffy nose. Sex is a natural
antihistamine. It can help combat
asthma and hay fever.

Starlight

I know I haven't been updating much. I'm just too lazy to update. Superbly lazy. Well, for those unaware, college is starting to go into week 4 already. So god damned fast. College occupies my life nowadays. Not that I'm complaining :) I pretty much leave for college early in the morning and come home late at night. Everyday. Coming home early is just not an option I consider anymore. There is just nothing to be done at home. Which obviously hurt my parent's feelings when I told them I don't like to be at home. Anyways, 2007 is looking good so far. But it isn't without the minor hiccups though. Things have made a turn for the unexpected lately. But I'll try and work it out.

Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST GILLIAN :D Happy 19th! You are old already Gillian XD old auntie hahahah. We celebrated Gilly's birthday in Luna Bar. I had the surprise all planned out perfectly. And it worked out perfectly. She got so surprised seeing us when she came out of the lift at Luna. We had out drinks and food there. It was a nice little celebration. Laughing and fooling around. We then left at 11 and headed to Asia Club. Was suppose to meet WengChi there but Si Hitam forgot to call him up while going there, so WengChi came later. We only played pool as we didn't want to make a fool of ourselves with our pathetic foos-ing. Gilly, Izan and AiWei went to Starbucks as they can't stand the smoke. Adam joined them soon after. We planned to leave at 2.30 am but stayed till about 3 talking and talking. Then we all went off. my car, carrying Kimmeh, Izan, Yippo and Fidi headed towards college as their cars were parked there. Got there said goodbyes and waited for out cars to warm up. As usual, if we warm up our cars, means we're not leaving soon enough. So we ended up staying there with Fidi giving us a feel how drifting feels like, talk-cock-sing-song-ing, looking at the stars, singing and honking. When we wanted to leave at 4, Fidi suddenly wanted to eat, so we all went up to ali maju and accompanied him to have his "breakfast". By that time my phone was ringing like mad from my dad's number. After Fidi finished, I bolted home. got home at 5 and I decided to just sleep in the car. Mind you I did have my keys with me. then by 7 I woke up and got up to the room.

So thats pretty much what happened yesterday. Had loads of fun with my dearest friends :)

Babble babble~

Theres 2 quotes I want to share with all of you...

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Clothes make a man, style defines him

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Being in love is not about looking for the right person,
instead its about being the right person

Monday Blues~

After much persuasion and demand from friends and readers alike, I'm finally getting down to updating this blog. I haven't been updating because I'm just too lazy. Well, its about time I get the ball rolling for 2007 :)

College just started today. Feels great to finally be able to see everyone on a daily basis. Well, almost everyone. Sadly most of the gang are moving up to year 2 of studies. I'm still stuck due to my incompetence of studying =/ So shall have to till February till everyone is in college. For those unaware, I'm back from Australia for about 2 weeks now. Boy, am I glad to be home. But I'm greeted home with the lousy internet problem caused by the earthquake in Taiwan. sheeesh. At least I don't have to be home a lot nowadays.

Now 2007 is here and I'm pretty much a year older. Time really flies lately. Sometimes you just wish it would just slow down a bit. I've come to realize even though I'm becoming 21, I don't feel like one. Slightly mature yes, but I just don't feel 21. When I was younger, seeing a 20 year old person seemed like very mature n old n responsible and all those stuff. Oddly I don't feel that way. I'm still pretty much the same. I'm amazed by toys, I act like a kid, I play video games. It's like I'm a kid stuck in an adult's body. Anyways, while in Australia, I did a lot of thinking about my life. I still haven't decide what I want to be when I work. Seriously no friggin idea at all. I don't know, is it because my interest is too wide? Is it because of my parents stopping me from doing what I really want? One thing is that, I can't imagine myself working in an office. I just can't. Try imagining. I'm sure you can't as well. My parents been bugging me about my studies. They think that I don't want to study. Truthfully, I really do. I know my parents think I'm a failure. They have this idea that I'm just going to work as a clerk in an office. I just don't study like how other people study. I don't read books. I observe and I listen. I know some of you guys will most probably be saying that I'm still failing. I know. I have no aspiration. Nothing to look forward to. Some people tell me to just think about being successful. Problem is, everyone wants to be. Its to general to say you want to be successful. Some people aspire to be successful to be a doctor, or maybe an engineer or architect. Probably thats the biggest problem for me.

Hopefully I'll be able to sort this out soon as possible. Need to finish up my current course by 2008 hopefully. Happy studying you guys! :)

Things that come in 3s

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back
1. Time
2. Words
3. Opportunity

Three things in life that may never be lost
1. Peace
2. Hope
3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable
1. Love
2. Self-confidence
3. Friends

Three things in life that are never certain
1. Dreams
2. Success
3. Fortune

Three things that make a person
1. Hard work
2. Sincerity
3. Commitment

Three things in life that can destroy a person
1. Alcohol / Drugs
2. Pride
3. Anger

22nd of December :D

First of I'd like to wish a big big big BIG happy birthday to:

1. Cheah Weng Chi
2. Gan Siao Hui
3. Yip Sing Khuen
4. Kimberley Tan Li Ling

:D Hope you guys have a great blast of a birthday! Best of Wishes from your dearest friend ;)

Sadly I won't be able to celebrate it with you guys :( boohoo. I'm at the airport now waiting for my flight to Brisbane, Australia. By the way, the Wi-Fi here is so bloody slow =.=" So I hope you guys have a great holidays and....

don't miss me too much XD

so till then, adios~

To ponder upon...

I've always believed that when it comes to love, one should love another person with all their heart deeply and passionately. Without any second thoughts. For as long as I know I've been doing this. How is one suppose to keep on doing so after so much pain. Should one stop doing so? For fear of getting hurt yet again? Or should one continue to do so because he believes that is the only true way to love and to live life fully. I also believe that great love and great achievement involves great risk. But how much of a risk is one willing to endure? Questions, questions and more questions. Some people do say that some questions are best left unanswered.....

Ilford Pan 100

Here are the pictures from my first black & white film roll. Lots of thanks to Sean who developed & scanned them for me. Enjoy!~

Headline News

Is Superman dead?

Chasing Dreams

Can you make me happy again?

Piccies!~

Finally got down to taking pics from the phone out. enjoy!

Hanahmanana

McGillys

Adam; BITBBH

Auntie Kim & Uncle Aliff

Sonia & Aliff

Of Thoughts & Emotions

Sometimes, you really wished something would happen...

but if it does, do you really want it to?

Everything just fades...

NasiGorengKetam

As time goes, you start to realize theres more to relationships than just love. Relationship is not about love, but it's more than love. Its about commitment, companionship, trust, understanding each other and love. You don't need a supermodel-looking partner in your life. Because beauty fades with time. You want someone that you adore all your life. Someone you keep on falling into even when they are not wearing make-up, or sweating or with their hair in a mess. Someone that you just never cease to amaze you no matter how they are. You want someone that appreciates you. Someone that wants to spend their time with you as much as they ever could. Someone that would do anything to just see you smile even for a second. Someone that thinks of you all the time. Someone that you want to take care of.

Meeeeh. I'm just crapping. So don't mind me XD

Have a nice holiday everyone! :)

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Bloody Fucking Pissed

Addiction

I'm friggin' addicted to FOOSBALL

D:

emo = hardcore

Chow Kitt Morning

Birthday Wish List

1. a Nikon FM2N
2. a PS 3
3. a new car
4. new set of lenses
5. a new digital camera
6. a foosball table XD

Sensia 100