Friday, January 25, 2008

Malacca Roadtrip

On Wednesday, 23rd of January 2008, a bunch of us went down to Malacca for lunch. We've been talking about this little trip since a while back. Finally able to do so. We initially planned to leave KL at 11am, but decided otherwise. Instead we left at 930am. Amir, Fidi, Charlene, Victor, Yip, Arnold were the passengers.














We headed out in 2 cars, driven by Jason and I. Took us about 90 minutes to reach Malacca. The city was bristling with traffic. Boy, were we hungry.




















We parked our cars in a nearby parking lot. From there we took a short walk down very nice pre-war shops. It was my first time going through Malacca on foot. Usually I would be in a car driving around to the places. Walking gave me a whole new insight into the city. After 10 minutes of walking, we finally made it to the chicken rice shop. =)









































As we walked into the shop, we realized that leaving at 930am was a good idea. Despite being only 1130am, the shop was almost full with customers. We quickly grabbed our seats. Jason and Victor placed the orders for us. I think we ordered 1 and a half of stimmed chicken and plates of rice balls and all of us had ais limau which was refreshing as it was a very sunny day.















After a very satisfying lunch, we decided that we needed cendol for dessert. We settled the bill and were on our way. Victor was on point as he knew Malacca better than any of us. We maneuvered between alleys and streets, in search of our cendol. But not before some shopping! Fidi and the others went into a few shops looking for souvenirs to bring back.




















Then we were off again for our cendol, but not before realizing that we actually made a wrong turn somewhere so we had to backtrack. After another 10 minutes of walking, we made it to the shop. We placed our orders and waited patiently for it to come while cooling ourselves down from the walk. When the cendol arrived, we all just started to dig in. This cendol is very different though. I was surprised when i tasted it. They actually mixed the cendol with coconut water. It just blended right in with the cendol. The coconut water gave the cendol the extra umph it needs. Soon after everyone was satisfied. With nowhere to go, we decided to head back home. In all, it was a very nice trip. Hopefully we will have more of road trips in the months to come!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

A saying goes...

Politicians are like diapers. They need to be changed frequently. For the same reason.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Geneva Peach Treaty

Article 1

Clause 1 : Never teach others to eat healthy food

Sunday, December 16, 2007

House says

Everything is Clearly Dying

Humans never appreciate what they have. They always want what they had. Or something someone else has.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Emotion Sickness

We know we're not suppose to, but we still do. We know there's a better way, but we still can't seem to choose it. Why? The answer eludes me. Is it logic? Is it fate? Humanistic instincts? Only time will bring the answers.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Don't Try to Understand Me

I haven't been online lately. Thats because I've been working. But today is my day off. Although tiring, I wish there was work today. Now that I'm not working, everything that I don't want to think about starts popping up in my head. Work helped me get them off my mind. I know people say life's never fair. But that doesn't mean I can just do what ever I feel like.

Oh well.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Origins of Malays

The Origins of the Malays
Prepared by Michael Chick

It's been interesting to read such free-flowing comments on the subject of the Origins of the Malays. While we are on the subject, how many of you have read the book entitled "Contesting Malayness - Malay Identity Across Boundaries" Edited by Timothy P. Barnard published by Singapore University Press?

Written by a Professor of National University of Singapore. It reflects the Anthropologists views that there is no such race as the "Malays" to begin with. If we follow the original migration of the Southern Chinese of 6,000yrs ago, they moved into Taiwan, (now the Alisan), then into the Phillipines (now the Aeta) and moved into Borneo (4,500yrs ago) (Dayak). They also split into Sulawesi and progressed into Jawa, and Sumatera. The final migration was to the Malayan Peninsular 3,000yrs ago. A sub-group from Borneo also moved to Champa in Vietnam at 4,500yrs ago.

Interestingly, the Champa deviant group moved back to present day Kelantan. There are also traces of the Dong Song and HoaBinh migration from Vietnam and Cambodia. To confuse the issue, there was also the Southern Thai migration, from what we know as Pattani today. (see also "Early Kingdoms of the Indonesian Archipelago and the Malay Peninsular")

Of course, we also have the Minangkabau's which come from the descendants of Alexander the Great and a West Indian Princess. (Sejarah Melayu page 1-3)


So the million Dollar Question... Is there really a race called the "Malays"? All anthropologists DO NOT SEEM TO THINK SO. (strangely, this includes all Malay Malaysian Anthropologists who are of the same opinion.)


Neither do the "Malays" who live on the West Coast of Johor. They'd rather be called Javanese. What about the west coast Kedah inhabitants who prefer to be known as "Achenese"? or the Ibans who simply want to be known as IBANS. Try calling a Kelabit a "Malay" and see what response you get... you’ll be so glad that their Head-Hunting days are over.

In an article in the Star, dated: Dec 3rd 2006

available for on-line viewing at:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2006/12/3/focus/16212814&sec=focus

An excerp is reproduced here below:

"The Malays – taken as an aggregation of people of different ethnic backgrounds but who speak the same language or family of languages and share common cultural and traditional ties – are essentially a new race, compared to the Chinese, Indians and the Arabs with their long histories of quests and conquests.

The Malay nation, therefore, covers people of various ethnic stock, including Javanese, Bugis, Bawean, Achehnese, Thai, Orang Asli, the indigenous people of Sabah and Sarawak and descendants of Indian Muslims who had married local women.

Beneath these variations, however, there is a common steely core that is bent on changing the Malay persona from its perceived lethargic character to one that is brave, bold and ready to take on the world. "


The definition of “Malay” is therefore simply a collection of people's who speak a similar type language. With what is meant by a similar type language does not mean that the words are similar. (A native Kelantanese native speaker has no clue whatsoever what his Iban native brother is talking about; if both speak their own dialect) Linguists however, call this the "Lego-Type" language, where words are added on to the root word to make meaning and give tenses and such. Somehow, the Indonesians disagree with this "Malay" classification and insist instead on being called "Indonesians" even though the majority of "Malays" have their roots in parts of Indonesia. They refuse to be called "Malay"…. Anyhow you may define it.

The writer failed to identify (probably didn't know), that the "Malay" definition also includes, the Champa, Dong Song, HoabinHian, The Taiwanese Alisan and the Philippino Aetas. He also did not identify that the "Orang Asli" are (for lack of a better term) ex-Africans. If you try to call any one of our East Malaysian brothers an "Orang Asli", they WILL BEAT YOU UP! I had to repeat this because almost all West Malaysians make the same mistake when we cross the South China Sea. Worse, somehow, they feel even more insulted when you call them “Malay”. Somehow, “kurang ajar” is uttered below their breath as if “Malay” was a really bad word for them. I’m still trying to figure this one out.

Watch “Malays in Africa”; a Museum Negara produced DVD. Also, the “Champa Malays” by the same.

With this classification, they MUST also include the Phillipinos, the Papua New Guineans, the Australian Aboroginies, as well as the Polynesian Aboroginies. These are of the Australo Melanesians who migrated out of Africa 60,000yrs ago.

Getting interesting? Read on...

"Malay" should also include the Taiwanese singer "Ah Mei" who is Alisan as her tribe are the anscestors of the "Malays". And finally, you will need to define the Southern Chinese (Southern Province) as Malay also, since they are from the same stock 6,000yrs ago.

Try calling the Bugis a "Malay". Interestingly, the Bugis, who predominantly live on Sulawesi are not even Indonesians. Neither do they fall into the same group as the migrating Southern Chinese of 6,000yrs ago nor the Australo Melanesian group from Africa.

Ready for this?

The Bugis are the cross-breed between the Mongolian Chinese and the marauding Arab Pirates. (FYI, a runaway Ming Dynasty official whom Cheng Ho was sent to hunt down) Interestingly, the Bugis, (just like their Arabic ancestors) were career Pirates in the Johor-Riau Island areas. Now the nephew of Daeng Kemboja was appointed as the First Sultan of Selangor. That makes the entire Selangor Sultanate part Arab, part Chinese! Try talking to the Bugis Museum curator near Kukup in Johor. Kukup is located near the most south-western tip of Johor. (Due south of Pontian Kechil) He is more than willing to expound on the Bugis heritage. Buy him lunch and he can talk for days on end.

Let's not even get into the Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Kasturi, Hang Lekiu, and Hang Lekir, who shared the same family last name as the other super famous "Hang" family member... Hang Li Poh. And who was she? Legend tells us that she is the Princess of a Ming Dynasty Emperor who was sent to marry the Sultan of Malacca. Won't that make the entire Malacca Sultanate downline "Baba" ? Since the older son of the collapsed Malaccan Sultanate got killed in Johor, (the current Sultanate is the downline of the then, Bendahara) the only other son became the Sultan of Perak. Do we see any Chinese-ness in Raja Azlan? Is he the descendant of Hang Li Poh? But wait a minute....

That's what legend says. Let's look at the proof. The solid evidence. There is a well next to the Zheng He Temple in Malacca which is supposed to be the well built by the Sultan of Malacca for Hang Li Poh. According to legend, anyone who drinks of it shall re-visit Malacca before they die. Hmmm smells like a romantic fairy tale already. But let's look at who Hang Li Poh actually is. Which Ming Emperor was she a daughter to? So I got into researching the entire list of Ming Emperors. Guess what? Not a single Ming Emperor's last name begins with Hang. In fact, all their last names begin with Tzu (pronounced Choo). So who is Hang Li Poh? An Extra Concubine? A Spare Handmaiden? Who knows? But one thing for certain, is that she was no daughter of any of the Ming Emperors. Gone is the romantic notion of the Sultan of Malacca marrying an exotic Chinese Princess. Sorry guys, the Sultan married an unidentified Chinese commoner.

Next question. If the Baba’s are part Malay, why have they been marginalized by NOT BEING BUMIPUTERA? Which part of “Malay” are they not? Whatever the answer, why then are the Portugese of Malacca BUMIPUTERA? Did they not come 100yrs AFTER the arrival of the first Baba’s? Parameswara founded Malacca in 1411. The Portugese came in 1511, and the Dutch in the 1600’s. Strangely, the Baba’s were in fact once classified a Bumiputera, but some Prime Minister decreed that they were to be strangely “declassified” in the 1960’s. WHY? How can a "native son of the soil" degenerate into an "un-son"? The new classification is "pendatang" meaning a migrant to describe the Baba's and Nyonyas. Wait a minute, isn't EVERYONE on the Peninsular a migrant to begin with? How can the government discriminate? Does the Malaysian Government have amnesia?

The Sultan of Kelantan had similar roots to the Pattani Kingdom making him of Thai origin. And what is this "coffee table book" by the Sultan of Perlis claiming to be the direct descendant of the prophet Muhammed? Somehow we see Prof Khoo Khay Khim’s signature name on the book. I’ll pay good money to own a copy of it myself. Anyone has a spare?

In persuing this thread, and having looked at the history of Prophet Muhammed (BTW, real name Ahmad) we couldn't figure out which descendant line The Sultan of Perlis was. Perhaps it was by the name Syed, which transcended. Then we tried to locate which downline did the Sultan descend from of the 13 Official Wives of Prophet Muhammad named in the Holy Koran? Or was the Sultan of Perlis a descendant from the other 23 non-wives? Of the 13 Official Wives were (at least known) 3 Israeli women. Then you should come to this instant revelation, isn't Prophet Muhammad an Israeli himself? Yes, the answer is clear. All descendants of Moses are Israeli. In fact, the Holy Koran teaches that Moses was the First Muslim. Thus confirming all the descendants of Moses to be Israeli, including Jesus and Prophet Muhammad. It is also found in Sura 2:58&59 which specifically mentions that the Torah/ Talmud (Jewish) and the Kitab (Bible) are Holy Words of Allah. But since this is not a Religious or a Theological discussion, let's move on to a more anthropological approach.

So, how many of you have met with the Orang Asli’s (Malaysian Natives)? The more northern you go, the more African they look. Why are they called Negrito’s? It is a Spanish word, from which directly transalates “mini Negros”. The more southern you go, the more “Indonesian” they look. And the ones who live at Cameron Highlands kinda look 50-50. You can see the Batek at Taman Negara, who really look like Eddie Murphy to a certain degree. Or the Negritos who live at the Thai border near Temenggor Lake (north Perak). The Mah Meri in Carrie Island look almost like the Jakuns in Endau Rompin. Half African, half Indonesian.

Stangely the natives in Borneo all look rather Chinese in terms of features and facial characteristics especially the Kelabits in Bario.

By definition, (this is super eye-opening) there was a Hindu-Malay Empire in Kedah. Yes, I said right… The Malays were Hindu (just like the gentle Balinese of today). It was known by it's old name, Langkasuka. Today known as Lembah Bujang. This Hindu-Malay Empire was 2,000yrs old. Pre-dating Borrobudor AND Angkor Watt. Who came about around 500-600yrs later. Lembah Bujang was THE mighty trading Empire, and its biggest influence was by the Indians who were here to help start it. By definition, this should make the Indians BUMIPUTERAS too since they were here 2,000yrs ago! Why are they marginalized?


The Malaysian Government now has a serious case of Alzheimer's. Why? Simply because, they would accord the next Indonesian who tomorrow swims accross the Straits of Malacca and bestow upon him with the apparently "prestigious title" of the Bumiputra status alongside others who imply have inhabited this land for hundreds of centuries. (prestigious, at least perceived by Malays) They also have a strange saying called "Ketuanan Melayu" which literally transalates into "The Lordship of Malays" The Malays still cannot identify till this day "who" or "what" the Malays have "Lordship" over. And they celebrate it galantly and triumphantly by waving the Keris (wavy knife which has Hindu origins in Borrobudor. Ganesan is seen brandishing the Keris in a bass-relief sculpture.) during public meetings over National TV much like a Pagan Wicca Ceremony on Steroids. Let's all wait for that official press release to see who the "Malays" have Lorship over, shall we?


Of the 3 books listed, "Contesting Malayness" (about S$32 for soft cover) is "banned” in Malaysia; you will need to "smuggle" it into Malaysia; for very obvious reasons.... :( or read it in Singapore if you don’t feel like breaking the law. Incidentally, the Professor (Author) was invited to speak on this very subject circa 2 yrs ago, in KL, invited by the MBRAS. You can imagine the "chaos" this seminar created...... :( Fortunately the FRU was not called in.


The other, "Kingdoms of the Indonesian Archipelago, and the Malay Peninsular" (about RM84) are openly sold at all leading bookshops; Kinokuniya, MPH, Borders, Popular, Times, etc. You should be able to find a fair bit of what I’ve been quoting in this book too, but mind you, it is extremely heavy reading material, and you will find yourself struggling through the initial 200+ pages. It is extremely technical in nature. Maybe that’s why it hasn’t been banned (yet)…coz our authorities couldn’t make head or tail of it? (FYI, if I wasn’t doing research for my film, I wouldn’t have read it in its entirety)


The "Sejarah Melayu" (about RM 50) however, is freely available at the University Malaya bookshop. I have both the English and Royal Malay version published by MBRAS. Alternatively, you could try reading the Jawi (Arabic Script) version if you are truly a sucker for unimaginable pain...... (may feel like circumcision)


There are actually many sources for these Origins of Malays findings. Any older Philippino Museum Journal also carries these migration stories. This migration is also on display at the Philippines National Museum in Luzon. However, they end with the Aeta, and only briefly mention that the migration continued to Indonesia and Malaysia, but fully acknowledge that all Philippinos came from Taiwan. And before Taiwan, China. There is another book (part of a series) called the "Archipelago Series" endorsed by Tun Mahatir and Marina Mohammad, which states the very same thing right at the introduction on page one. “… that the Malays migrated out of Southern China some 6,000yrs ago…”. I believe it is called the “Pre-History of Malaysia” Hard Cover, about RM99 found in (mostly) MPH. They also carry “Pre-History of Indonesia” by the same authors for the same price.


It is most interesting to note that the Malaysian Museum officials gallantly invented brand new unheard-of terms such as "Proto-Malay" and "Deutero-Malay", to replace the accepted Scientific Term, Australo-Melanesians (African descent) and Austronesians (Chinese Descent, or Mongoloid to be precise) in keeping in line with creating this new “Malay” term.. They also created the new term called the Melayu-Polynesian. (Which Melayu exists in the Polynesian Islands?) Maybe they were just trying to be “Patriotic” and “Nationalistic”… who knows…? After all, we also invented the term, “Malaysian Time”. While the rest of the world calls it “Tardy” and “Late”. It’s quite an embarrassment actually…. Singaporeans crossing the border are asked to set their watches back by about a 100yrs, to adjust to “Malaysian Time”…

In a nutshell, the British Colonial Masters, who, for lack of a better description, needed a “blanket” category for ease of classification, used the term “Malay”.

The only other logical explanation, which I have heard, was that “Malaya” came as a derivative of “Himalaya”, where at Langkasuka, or Lembah Bujang today was where the Indians were describing the locals as “Malai” which means “Hill People” in Tamil. This made perfect sense as the focal point at that time was at Gunung Jerai, and the entire Peninsular had a “Mountain Range” “Banjaran Titiwangsa”, as we call it.

The Mandarin and Cantonese accurately maintain the accurate pronunciation of “Malai Ren” and “Malai Yun” respectively till this very day. Where “ren” and “yun” both mean “peoples”.

Interestingly, “Kadar” and “Kidara”, Hindi and Sanskrit words accurately describe “Kedah” of today. They both mean “fertile Land for Rice cultivation. Again, a name given by the Indians 2,000yrs ago during the “Golden Hindu Era” for a duration of 1,500yrs.

It was during this “Golden Hindu Era” that the new term which the Hindu Malay leaders also adopted the titles, “Sultan” and “Raja”. The Malay Royalty were Hindu at that time, as all of Southeast Asia was under strong Indian influence, including Borrobudor, and Angkor Watt. Bali today still practices devout Hindu Beliefs. The snake amulet worn by the Sultans of today, The Royal Dias, and even the “Pelamin” for weddings are tell-tale signs of these strong Indian influences. So, it was NOT Parameswara who was the first Sultan in Malaya. Sultanage existed approximately 1,500yrs in Kedah before he set foot on the Peninsular during the "Golden Hindu Era" of Malaysia. And they were all Hindu.

“PreHistory of Malaysia” also talks about the “Lost Kingdom” of the “Chi-Tu” where the local Malay Kingdom were Buddhists. The rest of the “Malays” were Animistic Pagans.

But you may say, "Sejarah Melayu" calls it "Melayu"? Yes, it does. Read it again; is it trying to describe the 200-odd population hamlet near Palembang by the name "Melayu"?(Google Earth will show this village).

By that same definition, then, the Achehnese should be considered a “race”. So should the Bugis and the Bataks, to be fair. Orang Acheh, Orang Bugis, Orang Laut, Orang Melayu now mean the same… descriptions of ethnic tribes, at best. So some apparently Patriotic peron decided to upgrade the Malays from Orang Melayu (Malay People) to Bangsa Melayu (Malay Race) Good job in helping perpetuate the confusion. And since the “Malays” of today are not all descendants of the “Melayu” kampung in Jambi (if I remember correctly), the term Melayu has been wrongly termed. From Day One. Maybe this is why the Johoreans still insist on calling themselves either Bugis, or Javanese til today (except when it comes to receiving Government Handouts). So do the Achehnese on the West coast of Kedah & Perlis and the Kelantanese insist that they came from Champa, Vietnam.

Morover, the fact that the first 3 pages of "Sejarah Melayu" claim that "Melayu" comes from Alexander the Great and the West Indian Princess doesn't help. More importantly, it was written in 1623. By then, the Indians had been calling the locals “Malai” for 1,500 yrs already. So the name stuck….

And with the Sejarah Melayu (The Malay Annals in page 1-3) naming the grandson of Iskandar Zulkarnain, and the West Indian Princess forming the Minangkabau. Whenever a Malay is asked about it, he usually says it is "Karut" (bullshit), but all Malayan based historians insist on using Sejarah Melayu as THE main reference book for which "Malay" history is based upon. The only other books are “Misa Melayu”, "Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa", "Hikayat Pasai", "Hikayat Raja-Raja Siak" and “Hikayat Hang Tuah” among others; which sometimes brings up long and “heated” discussions.

Interesting to note is one of the great "Malay" writers is called Munsyi Abdullah; who penned "Hikayat Abdullah" He was an Indian Muslim. Let's re-read that little bit. He was an Indian Muslim. How can an Indian change his race to be a Malay? He can change his shirt, his car, his religion and even his underwear, but how can anyone change his race? This must be The New Trick of the Century, which even David Copperfield will pay lots of money to watch (and perhaps learn).

"Mysterious Race Changing Trick"- created by The Malaysian Government.

Still, Malaysians are still only second to the Jews (who by the way, are the only other people in the world who are defined by a religion) So perhaps David Copperfield has yet to learn a few tricks on the mass deception skills of the Malaysian Government?

Malaysia Boleh...

I find this strange.

I also find, that it is strange that the "Chitti's" (Indian+Malay) of Malacca are categorized as Bumiputera, while their Baba brothers are not. Why? Both existed during the Parameswara days. Which part of the “Malay” side of the Baba’s is not good enough for Bumiputera classification? Re-instate them. They used to be Bumiputera pre 1960’s anyway.

Instead of "Malay", I believe that "Maphilindo" (circa 1963) would have been the closest in accurately trying to describe the Malays. However, going by that definition, it should most accurately be "MaphilindoThaiChinDiaVietWanGreekCamfrica". And it is because of this; even our University Malaya Anthropology professors cannot look at you in the eye and truthfully say that the word "Malay" technically and accurately defines a race.

This is most unfortunate.

So, in a nutshell, the “Malays” (anthropologists will disagree with this “race” definition) are TRULY ASIA !!! For once the Tourism Ministry got it right….

We should stop calling this country “Tanah Melayu” instead call it, “Tanah Truly Asia”

You must understand now, why I was "tickled pink" when I found out that the Visit Malaysia slogan for 2007 was "Truly Asia". They are so correct... (even though they missed out Greece, and Africa)

BTW, the name UMNO should be changed to UTANO the new official acronym for “United Truly Asia National Organization” . After all, they started out as a Bugis club in Johor anyway….

I told you all that I hate race classifications…. This is so depressing. Even more depressing is that the "malays" are not even a race; not since day one.


“Truly Asia Boleh”

*This article was taken from NakTak.

Links & Reads

I've linked 2 new sites at the side bar. I recommend reading them.

One is NakTak. The other is the famous Malaysia Today.

;)

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

A Day's Grace

Cold splashes of water

Soft soothing breeze caressing my skin

Blinding sunshine through the windows

Breaths from the fires of hell

Concluded with white smoke from within

The clouds move by, while I ponder upon them

Alone as I sat wondering the puzzle

Bright turns to dark

Warm turns to cold

Unsolved, in midst of looking for the answers

I can see, but only so far...

Monday, November 12, 2007

Regret

I've always lived with the principal of never regretting my actions.

But will I regret my next?

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Life is....

Annoying

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Fuel Subsidy Restructure?

They are currently looking into the restructuring of the fuel subsidy system.

Good? Bad?

Life 101

We never appreciate what we have. We never appreciate what we have.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Isn't it strange?

I'm scared of.....

Monday, November 05, 2007

The ghost that just isn't holy anymore..

And when Miranda sang
Everyone turned away
Used to the noose
They obey

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Tidings

Going through my blog, I came to realize an awful lot of things. I got to notice how I've changed through out the life time of this blog. Which is about 2 years plus. How I used to think, how I used to write. Very much different from now. I also came to realize I have really been out of touch with my photography. Looking at the old pictures made me wonder what has happened to it. No I have not lost interest in it. It is more as if I have no vision for it. Got a good laugh seeing how emo I was back in the days. Made me miss the old days, when I used to hang out with Fez, Arifah, Yusnie, Syazna and many others. Gone were the simpler times. Now everyone is overseas. Leading their own life. Makes one wonder of the past, the memories. What is right? What is wrong? When will we know? How will we know? Only time has the answer. But by then, it might be too late. Life is just full of questions and choices. All we can do is make the best choice at the moment and know its the best that we can do.

=)

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Malaysians

Someone told me there are 2 big flaws in the Malaysian society:

1. We Malaysians always forget.

2. We Malaysians only cross the bridge when we have to.

I have to agree with this one.

A great man....

A historian once said a great man should be judged by three tests:

Was he found to be of true metel by his contemporaries ?

Was he great enough to raise above the standards of his age ?

Did he leave anything as permanent legacy to the world at large ?

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Lies?

I know you must be wonder what the hell is wrong with me for coming up with a blog post all of the sudden. Adam predicted my post would be somewhere in December. Its not like I don't have time or that I don't want to blog, but I just can't bring myself to write it up. Why you ask? The answer is very simple. Its because I'm envious of other bloggers. Of what you might ask? I'm envious of their writing style.

Among those people that I'm envious of is my closest friends. I just adore the way they write. Be it an essay, or a story or even just a short little post about their day, the writing just stands out for me. Three of my favorite blog writers are Adam, Victor and Syazna.(not in any particular order) Each of them has a very unique form of writing. I don't know how to explain( cuz I'm not good in writing) what about their writing that grabs me. Maybe its the flow. Maybe its the choices of words. Maybe its how it grabs you imagination. Endless possibilities. None which I can pin point to at this moment.

How I wish I can write something equally beautiful. If only I can make others smile reading something I write as how I smile every time I have the chance to read any material from these three writers. How Adam's posts makes me wonder.How Victor's posts make me question. How Syazna's posts make me think.

;)

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Taggy taggy~

Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
People who are tagged need to write in their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
At the end of your blog, you need to choose people to get tagged and list their names.
Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.



1- I have lotsa cats. How many cats do i have?Come to my house and find out. Its like a cat zoo here. It wouldn't surprise me that later on in life I will have probably a tiger pet or something.

2- I like to do things alone at times. Lunch alone. Walk alone. Stand at a corner in KLCC and watch people walk by alone. That kinda thing.

3- I like to dress up. period.

4- I read the newspaper back to front.

5- Driving is like second nature to me. Life without driving is meaningless.

6- I am a total nerd. Really.

7- I day dream a lot. Robots to secret organizations to space exploration. You name it.

8- When you enter my car, and you think its clean, I think its dirty.

10 things I love


Love? Hmm.

1- My friends.

2- Food

3- Driving

4- Family

5- Technology

6- BMW

7- Gadgets

8- Photography

9- Traveling the world

10- Foooooooos~

Saturday, August 04, 2007

List of Things I Wish I Had Money To Buy

1. The Civic Type R.
2. A PC according to my extreme preference.
3. A ton of shoes.
4. Sunglasses
5. A new camera.
6. New set of lenses.
7. Delicious lunches and dinners.

edit: I just saw the Asus Lamborghini laptop. Its selling for 13k. Boooy if I had the moolah I'd get it. Why you say? Because the specs are great for a laptop. Did I mention they giving like 15 free items with it? Among it are 4 bags, 2 lazer mouse, Ipod nano and a whole load of other laptop peripherals. Simply amazing.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Lunch Invitation

Hanah, if you are reading this, Adam and I would like to ask you to have lunch with us soon. We know you're busy with college and all, but we know you live so near to Damansara now :P So if you're free and you miss us as much as we miss hanging out with you, give us a holler then we can sort out the plans. ;D

p.s: Go read Adam's blog as well

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Stone Sour

Omega

What a skeletal wreck of man this is

Translucent flesh and feeble bones
The kind of temple where the whores and villains
Try to tempt the holistic tomes

Running rampant with free thought to free form
In the free and clear
Where the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a laundromat
To sift and focus on the bigger, better, now

We all have a little sin than needs venting
Virtues for the rending
And laws and systems
And stems are ripped from the branches of office
Do you know what your post entails?

Do you serve a purpose?
Or purposely serve?

Lying down inside of your atavistic galore
The value of a Summer spent
And a Winter earned

For the rest of us there is always Sunday.
The day of the week that reeks of rest
But all we do is catch out breaths
So we can wade naked into the bloody pool
And place our hand on the big black book.

To watch the knives zig-zag between our aching fingers.

A vacation is a count-down
T-minus your life and counting
Time to drag your tongue across the sugar-cube
And hope you get a taste

What the FUCK is all this for?! (What the hell is goin' on?!)
SHUT UP!!

I could go on and on, but, lets move on shall we?

Say, you're me and I'm you
And they all watch the things we do
And like a smack of spite
They threw me down the stairs
Haven't felt like this in years
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse
Let me go and
Plunge me into the dead spot again.

Thats where you go when theres' no one else around
It's just you
And there was never anyone to begin with now was there?

Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards
With their thumb on the pulse
And a finger on the trigger

CLASSIFIED MY ASS! that's a FUCKING secret and you know it!

Government is another way to say
Better
Than
You.

It's like ice but no pick
A murder charge that won't stick
It's like a whole other world
Where you can smell the food
But you can't touch the silverware

Hah, what luck
Fascism you can vote for
Isn't that sweet

And we're all gonna die some day
Because thats the American way
And I've drunk too much
And said too little
When your gaffer taped in the middle
Say a prayer, save face
Get yourself together and (see whats happening)
SHUT UP! (FUCK YOU!)
FUCK YOU!

I'm sorry, I could go on and on but
It's time to move on, so

Remember your a wreck, an accident
Forget the freak, your just nature

Keep the gun oiled and the temple clean
Shit, snort and blaspheme
Let the heads cool and the engine run

Because in the end,
Everything we do
Is just everything we've done.


The Frozen


The girls on the streets all look sad in this gold en crested little town
Why is that?
Isn't this the town of dreams?
yeah... But it comes with a price
It's a town that never does anything and yet takes all the credit
A place that promises so much,
But never has a thing to say,
Or a care in the world
There is no memory here
No dream for itself but the dreams of others
And all over the world you talk of a place you've only seen in re-runs
Immorallized for it's vice, and deified for it's carnage
(There's money in the air there)
(All you have to do is reach up and grab it)
In basements, garages, parking lots, empty lots, schoolyards, town cars, backrooms and more
Diamonds are fashioned from expectations and fortified on a steady diet,
of simple lives and red carpets
The ejaculating zeitgeist in nightvision
Culture is a punchline and emotion is blood in the water
The sharks here play games you can't fathom
But you flock here anyway
On college money and credit cards
Spend a week bullshitting yourself that it was all true
All of it
Just to watch in horror as it all falls to pieces under the gravity of reality
The starry eyes fade as it dawns on you
Nothing is guaranteed


You are a part of the great divide
The choosen or the frozen
Now your mouth's away without a net
Your college money's a collage of debt
and your credit cards are all snapped in f**king half
time to wander a landscape bereft of mercy
This is now the backlot of your failed movie
A waking dream re-written without your permission
The real luster, the soft focus, the...
Soap opera vision is just the hindsight of a world who's been lied to
Of sad surfs and untouchable lords
You took a chance didn't you?
But chance didn't have a par for you this time around, maybe next life
And you can't even walk home
The girls on the streets all look sad in this cardboard cut-out little town
(huh) No wonder
That's the only thing here that's real
The gold is for fools
And paradise is lost but the hungry have never bothered with the cost
Day by day they fall away like rose petals
Like ink that won't dry or fade
It just runs wild down cracks and crevices, grooves and folds
so I hope someone saves you before you get cold
I really do
Because the girls are all sad in this little black book
If you don't believe me, take a closer look
if you can

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Personality Test

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow.
You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation.

At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable



So what do you think?

Friday, June 29, 2007

What I've Been Up To...

Maybe some of you have been wondering where have I been lately. OK. Then again none of you did wonder. (Especially Adam >.>'') Anyways, I'm still gonna bore you to death and tell you what I've been up to anyways. It's something called America's Army. Its a game developed by the American Army. You can get it for FREE(don't we all just love free stuff?) So yea, anyways, you can get it for free at the site. Although it is a bit on the huge side, a whopping 2.5gigs to download. I have to say for a free game, it is darn good. Graphics are good. Game play is nice. This is an online only game. You can't play it offline. The game features a training mode where you go through certain training to enable you to play certain maps. If you are not qualified then you can't play it. I like this feature because it separates the players. There's marksmanship scores. Which tops out at 40. The site says that only 17% from 8 million users are of the 36-40 category. Me? I'm 38 while Yip is 39. w3 aR3 l447z0r.















This is me in prison after killing to many team mates .___.''



















Thats me on the floor, and oh, the one hanging is Yip after getting ambushed by the enemy .__.''

Monday, June 11, 2007

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Short Holiday

I just got back from a short holiday the past week. I went to Kijal, Terengganu and then to Kota Bharu, Kelantan. Kijal was ok, but quite dull for me. Family holidays always are for me. Drove all the way there. Drove all the way back as well. The drive back was awesome. Curvy b-roads. Awesome view of the mountains. Too bad I was driving if not i could have taken some pictures during the drive. Hope you enjoy the pictures I took while in Kelantan. Only the first picture is of Kijal. The others are of Kota Bharu.

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Questions that need answers

Can you cry under water?



How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?



If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?



Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?



Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?



Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?



Why does a round pizza come in a square box?



What disease did cured ham actually have?



How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?



Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?



If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?



If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you? (Yes)



Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?



Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?



How come we choose from just two people for President and fifty for Miss America?



Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.



If a 911 operator has a heart attack, whom does he/she call?



Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?



Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup?



Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out!"



Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?



Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?



When your photo is taken for your driver's license, why do they tell you to smile? If you are stopped by the police and asked for your license, are you going to be smiling?



If Jimmycracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?



Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?



If the professor on Gilligan's Islandcan make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?



Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?



Why does Goofy stand erect while Plutoremains on all fours? They're both dogs!



What do you call male ballerinas?



Can blind people see their dreams? Do they dream?



If Wyle E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?



If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?



If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?



Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?



Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?



Why did you just try singing the two songs above?



Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?



Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the window?

Gold Coast Sun

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Let It Bleed...

There is a sadness that no one sees within me.
Behind the smiles.
Behind the laughters.
It lurks in my shadows.
Invisible, silent but present nonetheless....

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Changes are no good

You look around you, and you see the things you cherish fade and crumble away piece by piece. What makes it worst is that you can't do anything about it. Deep down you tell yourself that it just can't be happening. It shouldn't be. It couldn't be. You think back, trying to figure out what happened wrong. What could just possibly be the reason? Your heart sinks. Everyone just smiles and go on with their daily lives with little to say. What happened to the laughters and giggles. The smiles and the winks. The singing and the playing. The eating and drinking. The talks and the shouts. Are they not there anymore? Have all just lost what kept us happy and warm. Have we lost that spark that had made us the envy of most? For certain we all see the void. But what are we going to do regarding it? Only we can answer that.

Friday, May 25, 2007

tagged

I forgot about this, Ja tagged me a while back lol


1. 5 things found in my bag
-laptop
-camera
-laptop charger
-ipod wire
-i think i just have 4, i do have my sunnies occasionally though

2. 5 things found in your wallet
-there is hardly cash in my wallet
-driving license
-ID card
-random cards
-membership cards.

3. 5 favourite things in your room
-my bed
-my clothes
-my laptop, when im home
- my comics =D
- nothing else =___=''

4. 5 things you've always wanted to do
- drive a race car around a track? normal car oso can actually
- travel the world over
- have the cunnest toys evah!
-get married!
- fit my fav jeans again lol

5. 5 things you're currently into
- kimberley tan XD
- all the music i just acquired XD
- eating
- driving!
- my new sweater w00t

6. 5 persons that you tag:
- charlene melanie marie samuel
- victor
- danial
- sonia
- alia

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Heroes

He CAN'T be dead! Noooooo! How can he be?! It's just not possible! NoooOooOOOooOoOoOoO~

Owh... Helo there.

Yes, I know i haven't been updating much. I blame it on the lack of activities in my life now. All I do is just rot at home. So it would be pretty boring if I told you guys stories of me rotting at home everyday right? Heroes has just concluded it's first season yesterday. I'm still downloading it now although I read the synopsis of the final episode already. What a shocker. The second season will continue in September. I have the counter right here on my blog. Mind you, the counter is a bit screwed up. Its off by a few hours I think. Be reminded that there will be a 6 episode series of Heroes before the second season starts. So there won't be a long hiatus for Heroes. This spin-off is called Heroes:Origins. Apparently, these episodes will introduce us to new characters which we can choose to add into the main cast later on in the third season. Cool! Do read the graphic novels as well. It will fill in on the in between stories which you find missing from the main series.

So have fun everyone. I'm going back to rotting =_="

Thursday, May 10, 2007

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Saturday, May 05, 2007

Singing

So there was this crazy guy whose admitted into the Tanjung Rambutan hospital. One day he was lying on his back and he started singing. And he was singing singing singing. Then he stopped singing. Then he turned around and lied down on his tummy. Then he was singing singing singing, his voice muffled by the pillow. A nurse passing by was curious… she asked the patient why are you lying on your tummy and singing? The patient replied: “Oh…finish side A liao…change to side B mah…”

Marketting definitions

She sees a handsome guy at a party. She goes up to him and say, “I’m fantastic in bed.” - That’s Direct Marketing.

She’s at a party with a bunch of friends and sees a handsome guy. One of her friends goes up to him and pointing at her says, “She’s fantastic in bed.” - That’s Advertising.

She sees a handsome guy at a party. She goes up to him and get his telephone number. The next day she call and says, “Hi, I’m fantastic in bed.” - That’s Telemarketing.

She’s at a party and see a handsome guy. She gets up and straighten her dress. She walks up to him and pours him a drink. She says, “May I,” and reach up to straighten your tie brushing her breast lightly against your arm, and then she says, “By the way, I’m fantastic in bed.” - That’s Public Relations.

She’s at a party and sees a handsome guy(U). She walks up to you and says, “I hear you’re fantastic in bed.” - That’s Brand Recognition.

She’s at a party with a friend and see a handsome guy. Her friend talks him into going home with her. - That’s a Sales Rep.

She can’t satisfy you so she calls her friend. - That’s Tech Support.

She’s on her way to a party when she realizes that there could be handsome men in all these houses she’s passing. So she climbs onto the roof of one situated toward the center and shout at the top of her lungs, “I’m fantastic in bed!” - That’s Spam.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I WANT MOREEEEEE!

How can they do this to me! How can they be this cruel! Make me wait for 5 weeks then make it hang again for me to wait for another 1 week! NOOOOOO! This is torturous!

Monday, April 23, 2007

Sweaters =D





















I think this about the best picture i have with me right now to show my favorite sweater. Its not with me anymore. So I want to ask does any of you know any butch looking sweaters for me to replace it with? A hooded zip-up kinda sweater. I did find an ok one in Quiksilver but it wasn't wow. Anyone seen any WOW looking sweaters lately?

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Saturday...

God knows just how much I hate holidays. There is just nothing to do. NOTHING. Gaah. I just stone in front of the screen day in day out. I don't even know what bands to download anymore. Anyone has any ideas? Recently I downloaded Arctic Monkeys, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Papa Roach. I highly recommend their new albums to everyone who loves rock =) There's a lot that I want to type out but I'm just too lazy right now. Probably later.

Ciao~

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Laughed & Grew....

I know I said I'll be back after the 11th but I guess I'm back slightly early this time. I can't seem to sleep yet. It's my fault though. I came home and slept till about 8:30 PM just now. Now I am having trouble sleeping. Great....

I was going through some blogs, when I came across a blog that belongs to a friend's friend. I found that his blog seemed interesting to read, so I started to read his postings. It made me realize that teenage life can be so much alike for some people. When you think that the problems you face will not be understood by anyone else, there is actually someone that goes through the same exact thing. Knowing this relieves you in some way. Knowing that burden is not just yours alone to carry.

=)

Till next time..

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Break

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging. I'll resume blogging probably after the 11th of April. Until then, take care =)

Sunday, March 18, 2007

BMW Power!











Doesn't that just looks awesomely hot? rawr~

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Pour considérer au moment

Pourquoi est-ce qu'est-il acceptable que une personne égoïste soit égoïste mais son un péché mortel pour qu'une personne désintéressée soit égoïste ?

Monday, February 26, 2007

One Night Affair

Yesterday, was the most awesome Sunday of my life EVER. Don't think anything can top going Muse's concert. Only Ijan, Charlene and I went for it. We met up in college at about 5 and headed for Stadium Negara straight away. We thought we were early, but by the time we got there, the place was already packed! So I parked and we headed to the stadium but then we decided to walk to Times Square for food. We had tepanyaki there. After dinner we walked back to the stadium and now there's tons more people around! Since the gates were not opened yet, we just stood there together with everyone else. Then at about 7 they opened the gates and we went in to our seats. Had to wait there for ages, seeing people get into the stadium. Suddenly at 8:50 the lights went out and Muse got on stage! Woooohoooo! Matt Bellamy sported a red sweater with red pants. They then kicked it off with Knights of Cydonia. Everyone was jumping and singing. The atmosphere was electric! Knights of Cydonia was totally kicking live! After that they played Hysteria and everyone went mental! Some of the other songs they performed was Butterflies & Hurricanes , Stockholm Syndrome, Feeling Good, Sing for Absolution, Soldier's Poem, Apocalypse Please, Newborn. MY favourite songs performed were Starlight, Plug-in Baby and Time is Running Out. The concert was a bit short for me, only lasting for 100 minutes. We wanted more, but sadly there was no encore. So we headed out and then headed to Ali Maju for supper. Sent the girls home and so did I. It was certainly one of the best moments of my life and I'd want to catch them live again. Hope its soon enough. :)

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Saturday Afternoon

It has been a while since I last updated about what I've been up to lately. For starters, I haven't been doing much so thats why I haven't update about it. And I still haven't been up to anything lately so that means this post will pretty much be crap. So I decided to write up about my college mates.




This is Shafizan. All of us call her Izan or Ijan. She hails from the land of Sarawak. I can't remember if I every saw her before, but I got to know her at the buka puasa steamboat all of us had. Ijan is very happy-go-lucky. She's smiling almost all the time. Ijan will always try and cheer up anyone thats sad or down. Especially Gilly. She's a very caring person and a very good listener. Very fitting for you to be come a psychologist or psychiatrist Ijan ;) She's my college lepak buddy. Haha. Usually we will hang around in college till about 9 or 10pm. Have fun back in Sarawak now Ijan!







This is the big guy, Adam. We usually call him Adam or Atam. Though he's big, he's very gentle and nice. Always the one to make all of us crack with his jokes. Never fails to make everyone laugh. Very smart and although he doesn't study. Hails from Rawang. You can hardly see me in college without him. It's like we're glued together or something. Got to know him back in my first semester when he was talking about hacking. XD He's also one of the few IT people among all of us. He's on holidays now, but his classes will start soon enough. Then he can join me and Ijan lepaking in college at night :P
Not to mention, the other hot guy in college besides me is Adam. Together we are the two hottest guys in college.










This is Gillian. The others call her Gilly, but I call her either Gilleh, or Billeh. Got to know her when me and Adam were teaching Kim and her IT. She was a bit sombong that time. In her own words, lansi! Gilly is very very very blur. She stones most of the time. Very smart and hardworking. Loves to play foosball. Now days, you can see her emo, so anyone that sees her emo-ing, go and tell her not to. If she still does, smack her. Gilly, stop eating, fat already :P You know I'm kidding Billeh XD and Gilly, read newspaper more!









This is Amir. Now days, we call him Amirruddin. He's one of em business students. He already started his 2nd year. But he always comes back to the dsa to lepak with all of us. Amir is weird. He is all hardcore and emo and all. dresses up rock-ish. But listens to hiphop. He will always be sms-ing. Can never see him without his phone in his hands. Amir has the mantap-est butt among us and all of us agree on that XD











This is Charlene Marie Samuel. Famously known as Leneh. Another weirdo :P, like Amir, because she looks like a rocker chick, but listens to hiphop XD She is usually the last one to arrive in college because her classes start late. I simply love to bug and annoy her. Especially early in the morning. She will always say that its too early in the morning for it. She has literally kicked my butt for no reason o.o but I just simply can't resist bugging her all day. Leneh, FAIL LA FAILLLLL. XD










This is Sugunthira Piragash. Better known as Kumar. If someone were to ask me if I know of any Malaysian, I'd point to Kumar. He speaks english, malay, tamil and cantonese. He may look gangsta and all but believe me, he's far from it. We call him Hero Tamil. Simply because he looks like a tamil hero in most of the pics I take of him. He is my foosball partner. Kumar main belakang, aku main depan o.o Currently just just inherited his brother's car and just made the decision to forget a certain someone. Carry on with the good work Kuuuuuumar. Kumar is also a sweet tooth and he can't drink for nuts. Seriously.










This is Kimberley Tan. I call her auntie Kim. Because she calls me uncle. I got to know her when Adam and I tutored her for IT. Kim can get stressed up easily at times, so Kim, chilllllll. I will annoy her the whole day in college, non-stop. Hence, she will end up smacking me, kicking me, pinching me or chase me in the dsa. She has soggy brain which needs to be corrected everytime anyone touches her head. She thinks she's fat. Which is absolutely not true. And she is a sweet tooth just like me and Kumar. Quite short as well :P and not forgetting she has OCD.









This is Fidi, but we call him pendek or kenit. He is the whackiest person ever. The things he does, my god. Fidi has no shame at all. NEVER bring him to the movies, or he will make you embarrassed. He absolutely loves football and is a devil when playing football. Can eat a lot for a small guy. People mistake him for a girl all the time. Tells stories about his life as if he's 90 years old. The things he and his siblings do, are simply amazing.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Random Things About Aliff

1. He reads the newspaper back to front.

2. He strongly believes that vegetables is a government conspiracy to brainwash the population.

3. He is extremely shy no matter how loud you see he is.

4. He talks to his cats, cars, hamsters, and to himself.

5. He loves jeans, shirts, t-shirts, shoes and etc. (fashion)

6. He absolutely loves fine dressing.

7. He wants to get married by 24.

8. He has way too many perfumes.

9. He adores jewelery and fine watches and considers them art.

10. He always gets his heart broken before he ever will break a heart.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

People say that its hard to get over a relationship because we often think what could and would have been. I don't this is true. At least for me. Because I know for a fact what would have and could have been. What makes it hard to get over a relationship is the memories.memories continue to linger around. Everywhere u go, whatever you do, everything reminds you of it. Its just hard at times to let go of something you cherish. Something that you just want to continue having all your life. It just haunts you that you can't have it anymore. That you have to bury it deep inside until you can't remember it even exist. But it will still pop out again and tear you apart again. Over and over till theres not one bit of compassion left in you...

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Night Cruising

Most of the time, we take almost everything for granted. Not to say that I don't, I do. But most of the time I realise it soon enough. For some, the only realise it when its too late. Often we take the people we love the most for granted. We often hurt those dear to us. We often break those close to us.

We do things that hurt others more often than we realise it. To us the things we do are ordinary but towards others, it might be devastating. They would just laugh and smile but deep inside they hurt. We are often ignorant of others.

Many times, we are unaware of the people in front of us. The ones that are always there. We tend to overlook those who care for us with all their hearts. Those who genuinely want to make our lives better, those who really want to just see us smile. Those who are happy by just being there for you. Oftentimes, they are disappointed ...