Inspiration

It has been a very long while since I posted something up. Very long while. I've just been up to the usual. Undoubtedly, life is a bit different than how I envisioned it to be. But that's life, it has it's ways to surprise you and catch you unprepared. No matter, I'm up for the challenge.

6 months has passed (roughly) since I came back from Australia. Being back in your own country is just simply amazing. I'm much more appreciative of what I have now. Hardly do I complain about anything in my life now. Circumstances are different here and there but hey, that's life for you. Everything is constantly changing. As they say, everything happens for a reason.

I have to admit, these are trying times. The world is in crisis, the country is in so much problems. Worries me sometimes how our generation will live in the near future. I have faith though that we will be able to solve this. We will make it all better. I will make it better.

I've learned to come to terms with certain things in my life that are out of my control. What I mean is love. Yep. Still single. Still looking. Or found. But that's for another day. I'm trying to improve myself, for the better. Keep reminding myself of the positive things. Everyday I am just thankful for everything that God has give me. I really do. Life really isn't that bad. You just have to stop, and enjoy the view around you.

The clock just turned 3am. I hope to write more often this time around. Getting comments from you people really gives me inspiration. I thank you for your comments, they really mean a lot to me. I hope you will continue to read my simple and humble writings.

Have a good day :)

God bless.

Back to December

Its been a while. Every once in a while, a thought creeps up to me. Its been about 4 years since my last relationship. To be honest, I'm quite scared to be in relationship again. I can't even remember what it feels like to be in one. I'm not sure if I still know how to be in one.

If I were to..

Shower my worries away, the bill at the end of the month would be quite a large sum.

Incoming

Just like that, 5 weekends of January 2011 went by. Things are still looking up, and hopefully will continue on to do so for the rest of the year. Pretty soon I'll be back to the good life back in KL. Can't wait. Its practically all I've been thinking about the past 2 weeks. People would say Australia can offer me a better life, but no thanks, I'll have the good life of KL.

In a few months, I'll turn 25. Thats a quarter of a century. Seeing peers of my age, they've obviously achieved a lot in 25 years. Mostly with degrees, a handful with jobs, some are married, some even with children. Me? Oh thats a different story all together. I wish I could say I was cryogenically frozen for a few years so thats why I'm a tad slow. But that will just remain a wish. So many plans in my head, just stuck there. I'll try and push a few out, hopefully this year.

Here's to us.

Two Zero One One

Felt like it was just last week that I welcomed 2010. It went by so fast. Now its already 2011. If you asked me what do I remember most in 2010, it'd say its a hard call. Not because there's so many to recall, but there's hardly any in the first place. As forgettable 2010 is, it still left an impact in my life. I came to realize the things that were and are important to me. Took a while for me to realise it, but I eventually did.

I'm very much looking forward to 2011. So far it started out good. Spent quality time with friends on new year's eve. Even on new year's day. Now I even have someone important and dear to me back in my life. I'm happier.

Happy New Year.

Butterflies and Revelations.

So there I sat, in the shower. With water crashing at the top of my head, rushing down the sides. I was hoping the sound would silence out my thoughts. It did for a while. But just not long or loud enough. Amidst the sounds of water all around me, my thoughts were still swirling around in my head. They were still fixed on you.

I tried to focus on the sounds of the water crashing. But it only made me think about things even more. I thought of the events of the past 2 weeks. The events has made me realize things I always thought I knew, I didn't. It has opened my mind and heart to a whole new idea and understanding.

I know now what I want. More than ever.

Tweaks

Kinda like how my desktop looks like now. :)

Jump

Its amazing how this band has inspired me.

Misguided Ghosts

In between all the hustle and bustle of life, we often forget the important things in life.

The things we believe in just fade, bit by bit. We loose track of what makes us. Often enough, life throws a few friendly reminder to us every now and then. If we're lucky enough, we'll realize it early enough to get back on track. Same can't be said for some people. They go through too far down the rabbit hole that they forget who they really are, or what they stood for.

I've come to realize so many things about my life since I've been abroad. Thankfully I am still pretty much the person I am when I left, at least I'd like to believe so. Matter of fact, I might even have grown and matured a fair bit. As they say, the only change worthy is towards the better. I'm also thankful for the great friends that I have in my life, you know who you are. Thanks for helping me with my problems big and small.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, so I'm just going to end it here.

Take care.

I need to run away.

Get away from all this.

Just. Run.

Blissful rendezvous..

Around me, blissful silence.

Rain drops from the sky blanketing the horizon.

I close my eyes, take a deep breath.

Serene, peaceful feeling.

I welcome the soft cold breeze.

For once I'm free from my thoughts of late.

For once I'm happy.

For once I wish I could stay in this moment forever.

Empty reflections

Everything is falling apart.

Piece by piece. I can see it crumble away.

I'm trying to keep it together, hold it steady.

A heavy, sinking feeling. Weighing me down.

Just longing to rest my head, and close my eyes.

24 on 24th

24th March. A date that no matter what will always be my favourite. This year's date is no different. In fact its slightly significant for me. Its the year I turn 24. If you've been around me long enough, you'll know what turning 24 is important for me.

I've been through my share of ups and downs over the years. This time, for the first time, I'm celebrating away from home and loved ones. I honestly never thought I'd be in this situation. Never planned to fly to Australia to study. For many months I pondered if I made the right choice. And for many months I thought it was the wrong one. Of late, I think it was the best decision I made at that point of time. This major move has taught me many things. Allowed me to learn more about life and myself. Made me appreciate the things I used to over look back in KL. Most importantly, I've learned that I've grown. I take care of myself better. I study (significantly more than I did in KL). I learn. I understand. I appreciate.

I might have still learnt all this if I stayed in KL. Probably later on. I might not even realize them ever. Life is unpredictable. We can plan for the best. Everything will unfold itself with time.

I lost my train of thought somewhere between there and here. So I guess I'll just make a short ending. It has been a great 24 year. The things I've done. People I've got to know. Places I've been. I appreciate them all. Here's to many many returns.

Happy birthday Raja Aliff.

Sights & Sounds

Been a while.

Decipher me.

Footnotes.

It has been ages since I last updated this blog. I particularly blame this on Twitter. I has enabled me to express my thoughts in an easier way. So I'm not even sure if anyone will actually be reading this post. Looking back at things, its already been a year. Time really really just swiftly passes by nowadays. December of 2008 is very much still fresh in my memory. Amazing. Just 12 months later.

With new year approaching, its usually time to reflect on the year. I have to say it has been a rather big year for me. With 2010 being the year of the Tiger, I'm really hoping for even bigger things in the year to come. I've never made resolution or the sorts. I'm not starting to either. I will however still keep on moving and improving myself. Enjoy and savour this precious life. '

One step at a time.

Merry Christmas and have a great New Year.

=)

Letters to me.

Raindrops tapping softly on my window

Cold, silent breeze passing through

Serene, blissful silence

I smiled to myself.

Theres something about the rain

Greetings old friend

Out of reach

Lately I've been hard to reach

I've been too long on my own

Everybody has a private world

Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?

Are you trying to get through?

Are you reaching out for me?

Like I'm reaching out for you?

Peeking throught the blinds

Since coming to Sydney, I haven't been updating as much as I wanted to. Its not that I don't have things running through my mind anymore, its more that I can't find a way to put the into words anymore. Coming here has indeed taught me a lot of things. Especially regarding myself. Which is good, since part of coming here is for me to, how to say, have a bit of soul searching for myself.

I was heading down a good, smooth road. Until I ruined it for myself. Always with the same reason; love. It is the single most distracting matter that can turn my life upside down, inside out. I literally just lost my bearing. Only a handful of people know whats really happening.

I guess pretty much for some of the matters, I have to do what I have to do. lets just hope it turns out right.